it is not creepy.
it will not stalk you in the middle of the night.
it is polite. it will knock on your doorstep
and ask permission before it enters.
that way, you don’t have to be watchful or to hide.

it is shy, humble. it is not arrogant nor conceited.
neither is it bold. it is passionate but it is also timid.
it will only hurt like a butterfly.
my love for you is patient.
it will always accept even if it does not understand.

it is not perfect. it is human.
it will make mistakes. it sometimes cries at night when it is alone.
it sometimes is weak, insecure, doubtful and jealous.
but my love for you is also hopeful and enduring…
because it wants to last.

it is simple. it only wants you to be happy.
it wants you to succeed in all aspects even if it comes to losing you
because my love for you is not selfish
it may not know the right words nor the right caress
but it wants to give you everything it has to offer.

my love for you is freedom
the only cage it wants you to know….
is my arms wrapped around you…whenever…wherever.

apparently, i have a hard time saying these words.
the more i feel this the more scared i become.
i have imagined saying these more than once in different ways
in different ocasions but i have never had the chance.
there seems to be no right time or right moment for these three little words.
when you love someone, this is suppose to be the easiest words to say..
i have only said these words a couple of times and all those times i meant it.
i remember perfectly where, when, how and to whom i’ve said it.
i am waiting for that day when i can say these again without holding back,
without being scared of the consequences.
i wish to say these without turning away or hiding my fear with a smirk.
cause when you feel this, it consumes you
and no matter how hard you try to hide it, it still spills out.
it’s in your eyes, your carress, your hug, your kisses. it’s everywhere.
i wish i could say this freely and to accept everything that comes in saying it.
to open myself up to the possiblity of hurting again,crying again,
allowing myself to be vulnerable.
saying this means i am letting that other person break my walls and letting him enter.but then again,
i also know that saying these words is another chance for happiness,
for hope,
for “us” insteaad of “i”.

so how hard can it possibly be?

Naririto nanaman ako sa KFC, medyo na-miss ko na kasi and hot and crispy chicken nila.  Mag isa lang ako kaya nakaupo ako sa sulok lamang ng restoran. Habang kumakain ako, naisip kong bakit nga ba pabalik-balik ako dito  mag isa man o may kasama.   Paborito ko ang KFC.   Unang KFC na napuntahan ko ay sa Cebu, summer ng 1997.  Mag co-college pa lang ako nun.  Kararating ko pa lang ng Cebu noo’t yun agad ang gusto kong subukan, kumain sa mga fast-food na napapanood ko lang sa tv at wala sa aming lugar.  Marami rin akong nasubukang kainan, pero sa KFC ako bumabalik.  Minsan nang may nagyaya sa’kin kumain sa labas, dinala nya ako sa isang mamahaling restoran.  Di ako nag-enjoy.  Maliban sa kinailangan ko pang mag-ayos at magpa impress, di pa ako makakain ng marami, at di pa masarap ang pagkain at mahal pa. Nang niyaya nya ako ulit, sinabi kong sa KFC na lang kami kumain, ayaw nya, di ata sanay kumain sa mumurahin lang.  Di na naulit ang paglabas namin.  Dahil sa nag-aaral pa lamang ako noon, limited and budget ko, kaya halos dalawa o tatlong beses lang ako kumain sa KFC bawat buwan.    Minsan na rin kaming nag-away ng boypren ko dahil sawang-sawa na ata siya sa KFC, mabait naman ako kaya pumayag akong sa iba na lang kami kumain, ang mahirap lang dun ay,wala naman siyang masabing ibang restoran na gusto niya kaya nauwi rin kami sa KFC na lang. Nang pumunta ako ng Maynila, ang sabi ko sa aking sarili, mag-iiba na ako ng buhay kaya dapat di na ako masyadong bumalik sa KFC, subukan ko naman ang ibang mas okey na restoran.  Ang daming mapipilian dito, at dahil may sweldo na ako, hindi na isyu masyado kung magkano ang kakainin ko, maliban na lang kung sobrang mahal na ng pagkain.  Ang dami ko nang napuntahan, iba-ibang klaseng luto at pagkain.  Meron pang mga pagkain na mahirap ispelengin, masarap lang kainin.  Meron ding japanese, chinese, korean, Filipino, American, lahat na ng lahi ng pagkain.  Nag-e-enjoy naman ako paminsan minsan pag kumakain ako ng iba-ibang klaseng pagkain.  Akala ko nakalimutan ko na ang KFC at ang kanilang hot ang crispy chicken.  Kaya natawa akong bigla ng naisip kong andirito nanaman ako, kumakain sa KFC, maraming tao, magulo.  Mukhang ang hirap tanggalin ng KFC sa buhay ko.  Kanina lang ay naglalakad ako, walang patutunguhan, naghahanap ng mapupuntahan, at ngayon, heto ako kumakain nanaman sa KFC.  Minsan ang dami dami nating hinahanap, and dami nating gustong subukan, gustong gawin pero sa huli, bumabalik din tayo sa nakasanayan natin. Bakit? Siguro dahil sa KFC, ako ay ako, di ko kelangan maging ibang tao, di ko kelangan magbihis ng marangya o magpa impress….Di ko sinasabing masama maging marangya,minsan maganda rin mag-ayos at pumunta sa mga lugar na di normal para sa’yo pero alam kong sa huli, ang puso ko ay para sa iisang tao, este restoran lang…at yun ay ang KFC.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.  (true!)
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.  (let me think about this)
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.  (just a little? )

You are the total package – suave, sexy, smart, and strong. (definitely!!!!  i have no room for humility)

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. (for a while)
You don’t always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don’t have as much going for them as you do.  (not sure about this)

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.  (really?)
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.  (wish this is not true)
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.  (yes i get bored easily)

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.  (proud to)
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.  (too many ideas make my head ache)
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. (which makes it hard to identify who i really am)

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection. (used to)
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.  (yes to everything, for the worng reasons though)
You have the classic “Type A” personality.  (what’s type A?)
What’s Your Name’s Hidden Meaning?
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