stone September 28, 2007
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sometimes i think my heart is made of stone
solid…hard…harder to break
when i think of how it came to this..
i can’t help but cry cry for innocence
for all those experience that made it numb
for all those memories that built a wall around it
for all those times i could not undo
sometimes i think my heart is made of stone
…..a stone when thrown would hurt a person.
i hope i am a heart not made of stone
because i never wanted to hurt another person.
mirror July 20, 2007
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you see yourself in the mirror everyday.
and because you’re used to seeing yourself everyday, you can’t really tell the difference.
yes your eyebags has it’s own life growing on it’s own, but that’s normal, been like that ever since.
the frown becomes a regular thing to see.
your lips are losing it’s glow.
but that’s normal in your life too, it happens.
what you are not used to is to see yourself smiling for no reason at all, making some faces in front of the mirror like crazy.
you just realize you are happy and it’s a really good feeling to see.
you wonder how your life had been very very lonely when you have a thousand reasons to celebrate life, and thousands of people to share it with.
how funny it is is to hear your own laughter and see your eyes twinkle.
in one blink of an eye, your life has forever changed and now you see things differently.
you are happy, and you never even thought it could happen…… it finally did…. now you want to see tomorrow…. now you want to see what’s in store for you…. now you can wake up and not look at the mirror, but instead see the man who mirrors your happiness.
grain of sand July 17, 2007
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LIFE…. what have i learned in life. i learned that everyday doesn’t sum up to 24 hours, it sums up to how many seconds, minutes and hours you have appreciated the challenge it brings. i learned that each day when you wake up, you don’t necessarily have to look up in the mirror, that there are more important things than yourself (like calling your mom who wants to know if you’re still alive). i learned that the words you utter, doesn’t make you, you make them, so don’t assume backwards. i learned that you can’t touch others if they don’t let you, but if you insist, then make sure you know what you’re doing. i learned that you can’t count the rain, but you can feel it, and it could flood you like your tears. i learned that breathing deeply means you’re regretful or hopeless or restless or well… just trying to stop your tears. i learned that you can never own somebody but you can always belong to if you choose to. i learned that choices are made not for confusion nor complication. choices are made for us to realize that we are just one person, that life is big,that WE ARE NOT ALONE and we cause chain reactions, that we affect others and they affect us. that in every turn and every nook, there are other people, some care, some don’t, some love, some are strangers. that no matter how many times you tell yourself that you are in control of your life, you are still JUST A GRAIN OF SAND, you will not always be on the shore and stand on sidelines, because if the sea swallows you, you can be in the deep bottom.
where am i now? i believe i’d be in the deep bottom soon. i have been on shore for a long time now, still i don’t have my answers. i believe if i go deep, i’d find it there.
