chasing stars

when you feel that longing or warmth for that someone you love deeply, it doesn’t mean that it will be granted. especially if you don’t know how to ask…or give.

sometimes you think that silence will help you recover from the pain, even if you know that it will only go away if you learn to speak up.

when your scars are so deep, it deformed you, how will you repair the damage? or can you even repair it on your own.

if you can’t, how can you let someone do it for you, if you don’t even acknowledge that someone’s presence in your life.

you try to work things out the only way you know, however, as much as you want it resolved, you just can’t control the situation.

you hold on to your pride, the belief that you can make it on your own. why? because when everything or everyone leaves you, that’s the only thing left… or is pride the reason why they leave you in the first place.

how will you figure it out when you deny yourself the happiness that can only be acheived if you learn to open yourself up and let others do their share?

are you selfish because you don’t want others crumbling your wall? or are you giving and considerate because you know that you are just saving them from possible complication which is you.

are you just misunderstood? or can you even understand yourself.

when you are so confused, you feel like giving up, how far will you gamble to hold on to that something so dear yet so unsure?

is it really worth it? are you really worth it? if you are, then how come i am crying now?